Jerry Nanaki

ISH

2011-08-17T05:42:00.002+08:00

"If only you were not my friend, I would be slightly happier"

sorry, but it's the truth.

Sign off Anwar Yusoff

Line

2011-08-15T05:34:00.002+08:00

This line is fine.
It doesn't need a more complicated design,
It's not a sign,
It's just a line.

I want my own line, I hear you whine.
Wanting your own line is fine,
But you can't have this fine line,
This fine line is mine

Sign Off Anwar Yusoff

Mistake

2011-08-10T01:50:00.000+08:00

I admit it..!!

Yes, it's my mistake.. I admit it..!!

huh so good if everyone in this world admit their mistakes..

then there'll be no trials, no court, no judges, no lawyers.. heheh..

but the thing is not everyone admit their mistakes..

it is never easy to admit you're wrong..

people always think they're right..!!

they tend to blame on others and give so many excuses..!!

admit your mistake..!! don't blame on others..!!

you gain nothing if you keep giving excuses..!!

Sign Off ( Anwar Yusoff )

Attitude

2011-08-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

attitude..!! attitude..!! attitude..!!

yes I'M NOT PERFECT..!!

yet we're not perfect..!!

but can't we change to be a better person..?

why should we keep repeating those bad attitudes..?

which in the end give a bad impression toward ourselves..

do we want to be loved by just some and hated by many..??

once a person have a bad impression toward you,

it's hard for them to see your good job

because the 1st impression give a great impact on you..!!

if you want others to respect you, you have to respects others first..!!

Is it fair to those innocent peoples..?

well it's not the time to blame each others..!!

we're big enough and matured to think

which one is good and which one is not..

come on..!! lets change..!!

SIGN OFF

Insomia

2011-08-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

been finding it hard to sleep at night.

again.

even when i'm super duper tired.

my mind just refuses to shut off.

people wonder what i run on.

i would like to know myself.

my remedy? headphones and good music.

i've always liked silence.

i've liked spending time in my own head.

but it doesn't help me sleep!

blasting music drowns out the overactive thoughts.

so i can finally sleep.

funny thing is that there are times where i can't fall asleep unless there's complete silence.

i'm a weird kid.

it's 2am.

i'm going to sleep.

p.s. did you notice how many times i used the word 'sleep' in this post?

Misdiagnose nauesea

2011-08-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

Barney tired of the world too. Sobriety was far too much to handle

TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED ...

The world is full of shit. No wonder even Barney's found wasted on the street.

Ignorance

2010-10-27T20:02:00.001+08:00

I CANT STAND IGNORANCE!!!!

9 September 2010

2010-09-09T06:16:00.001+08:00

My Hari Raya Wishes 2010

Ramadhan is coming to an end now . And tomorrow will be one of the biggest annual celebrations for all Muslims worldwide. It will be a celebration of victory for all who succeeded in completing their duties during Ramadhan as well as to welcome the month of Syawal. How fast the days have moved, it seemed only yesterday I’ve just started fasting.

I’d like to take this opportunity to wish all my family, friends, colleagues and business associates Happy Holidays! and Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin. I would like to also apologize for any wrong doings or harsh comments I might have made to everyone. We are only human so are prone to making mistakes. Do take care of yourself and your loved ones during this festive period, especially if you’re planning to travel long distances. Check your transportation and make sure you allocate enough time for delays and congestion

Sign Off
Nanaki Uzumaki

Naruto

2010-03-07T10:13:00.000+08:00

"I can't give up! If I keep walking without ever stopping, I'll make it to you!" - Naruto

This is what he said when he's training on a new technique for the purpose of pursuing Sasuke. I really like the words used for subbing the said episode. It contains simple sets of phrases that can be used to motivate one self to continue pursuing and doing anything it can to succeed or to reach what someone wants. It's a gold mine quote for me. I really love anime it shows an unreal world but speaks of reality of life.

240210

2010-02-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

Me, I’m dishonest. And a dishonest people you can always trust to be dishonest—honestly! It’s the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they’re going to do something incredibly… stupid

230210

2010-02-23T23:20:00.004+08:00

FLUTTERING

I wrote one whole blog post on this and it is extremely weird behaviour, even for me. And this is to account for the abnormal Anwar Nanaki whom you have been interacting with for the past few months ( gosh, it has been more den 1 years).

Anyway, i am going to let everything status quo and not try to be funny.

This too shall pass. I hope. I mean , the whole fluttering thing. I am not sure this is the right thing to be now. Or any time in future for that matter.

LOL, who am i kidding

SIGN OFF

220210

2010-02-22T21:10:00.003+08:00

AS IF

I realised, that i'm done with drama. Not forgetting faking myself infront of those who i want tho appear with. I believe the time s up. No more faking and pretending to be ok..

It takes so much effort to fake around those you happenened to dislike , dont you think so?

I wondered how these FAKE people do it all the time?..

I've met so many fake people, with their plastic faces and smiles, and i wondered. It must have take plenty of work and effort to go arou nd, "pretending" to like everybody, and assuming that eveyone likes you in return.

Usually you would want to question their motives, why appear fake infront of you, when they dislike you in the very first place?

My Next resolution, Avoiding the fake people all together, not forgetting to simplu cut of the drama, Who needs it!!!..

for your query, no... we dont have any drama, everyone is moving on rather fine, we are just simple and happy, thanks for your concerned though and i appreciate it..

SIGN OFF

Sunday 211010

2010-02-21T01:27:00.001+08:00

BAD DAY

Being popular can be a bitch , yes, its true you know. The more popular you get, there are people who tend to dislike or hate you. but then again, you cant stop them.

I wanted to write something that probably sounded bitte and rather bitchy, but i find it utterly useless. because i feel that there is no way to please human beings that you came in contact with. Those who like you, good larh. Those who hated your guts or probably your lifestyle, you cant do anything much about it, now can you?

You can't change because "some" people dislike you. I think the need to change is vital, when things get too negative. let say, people mentioned that you are rude, so u can change and be less rude. People mentioned that you are always late, and never come on time, and it drives them nuts!

You have to realise that they are right, and make the effort to come early , for me , i know that i am not the perfect human being. I do have flaws and i admit it, but i can never stopped people from judging me.

I feel that at times when i'm work , i have this sudden mood swings that its inevitable.sometime, i can be so quiet, then i can rather be loud, the next minute, i will be having my dark clouds on top of my head. and i hated it when people ask me why i was moody or quiet.

i wished that i can change something about myself, while i'm at work its draining to have all these moods in just one day.

Sign Off

12 September 09

2009-09-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

I set out today to do some 1200 m intervals. After last week’s extreme FAIL where I didn’t even manage to get through the first interval, I was determined to get something positive out of this week’s session. Technically, the plan called for 6×1200, but I was being more realistic by shooting for 4×1200. Here’s how it went:

1 km warmup

1200 m in 4:30

1200 m in 4:38

800 m in 3:04

400 m in 1:30

800 m in 3:06

400 m in 1:26

Finished at Easy pace to total 8 km.

So, I wussed out a little but instead of quitting I just broke the final 2 1200’s into more manageable 800’s and 400’s. I even ran them slightly faster for good measure! So, I spent a total of 3 km at roughly 6:00 min/mile pace. I’m going to be happy with that. I need something to hang my hat on and from which I can gradually improve.

110909

2009-09-11T00:09:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

Like last week, this week started out well, but soon turned sour. It was another stressful week at work and there were physical manifestations: tightness in my chest, light heartedness during runs, lack of sleep, etc. I ended up taking Friday off out of pure lack of enthusiasm. I tried to come back with a ten km Friday morning, but the shortness of breath held me to 6 km. I did have a pretty solid four km that afternoon so I still got 10 for the day. Not knowing how I was going to deal with the long run, I reluctantly opted for the treadmill Saturday morning. Aaron was nice enough to join me, despite having run on the treadmill all week (he did 20 on the mill Monday morning).

That run went pretty well. I varied my pace between 10 min/km and 8:30 min/km. Around 8km, I started to smell myself. I was wearing shoes I had worn during a rainy run on Tuesday and they smelled really, really bad. I pointed this out to Aaron.

“Oh, that’s you?” he said, “I thought it was that guy over there.” A few seconds later, he was laughing.

“Man, that’s pretty putrid, I might have to call this one at 12 km.”

He did indeed call it at 12 km. Once he had ceased running, he was able to use all his energy to rip on me.

“You know what you’ve got?” he asked. I wasn’t sure I wanted to know. “You’ve got the stanky leg. You ever heard that song?”

I had to confess that I hadn’t. Meanwhile, Aaron tried to recall the beat while stretching. Sadly, he was unable to pull it up on his handphone so he just had to work out the music and lyrics himself. He turned his back to me to stretch his quads.

“Yeah, you got the stanky leg!” he exclaimed, laughing just as a woman walked in front of him with her head phones on. She paused and removed her headphones.

“Excuse me?” She asked. Niiice. I couldn’t wait to see how this would play out.

“Oh, I was talking to him,” Aaron said pointing to me. Somehow, she was satisfied with that.

“So, what do you think they’re doing down there?” she asked, pointing to a group of people downstairs doing jumping jacks.

“Looks like some kind of exercise class, ” replied Aaron. I’m flabbergasted at this point. He tells her she’s got the “stanky leg” and now she’s trying to flirt with him? That’s bunk.

I polished my run off at 12.5 km (a new personal treadmill distance record) and stretched. For those who are curious, this is the stanky leg:

Monday (after work): Threshold intervals totalling 7 km

Monday PM(10PM): 3 km at 8:06 pace

Tuesday PM(10PM): 6km at 8:49 pace

Tuesday PM: 4km in the pouring rain at 7:53 pace

Wednesday AM/PM: 1200 and 800 m intervals at 9:20 pace ( Got chance for HLS)

Wednesday PM: 3 km at 8:31 pace

Friday AM: 6 km at 9:59 pace ( Got chance for HLS)

Friday PM: 4 km at 8:13 pace

Saturday: 13km at 9:36 pace

Total: 53km (somewhere there)

Hey, another 2 days off and I still got 53 km!

25 August 2009

2009-08-25T23:10:00.004+08:00

I am wondering what you people have planned for the life ahead of you. Also, do you have set goals that you're planning on achieving? If so, what are they? I know, we all plan on doing something or being someone when we are really young.. some of us actually become that person. but as my mom told me, 'you don't always get what you want.' Anyway, post up what you feel.

Me myself, I'm 21 going on 22.. and when i was four, i wanted to be a ninja. so i was enrolled in school track and field during my ITE. Since then, i have 5 golds/1st places and three bronze medal. i also though i was going to be a police because i have 5/6 Uncle who are all policemen(and one is a CID), and so is my bestfriend MJ. but my one uncle told me i didn't have to be what they are. (he does finance or whatever) Now, I just have athletic and Naruto fan as my hobbie. I currently share an Entrpreneur bussiness with my best friend/cousin and KAI HOE. so i'm insterested in the bussiness field now. I was thinking about becoming a pro bio Medical study (because i prollie could be [Medical Ninja!]) but i know that my family wants me to go to college. So now i dedicate an hour of my time everyday to studying for the DIPLOMA (even though i juz touch on business module) I've realized now that the key to succeeding is to have your priorities straight. There's time for studying, school, girlfriend, games, going out, working out, sleeping, eating, and whatever. :]

SIGN OFF
ANWAR YUSOFF

Changes

2009-05-24T21:51:00.003+08:00

When the Wind blow.... all i can hear is the trees sway and leaves rustle

I'm 21. All 21. All alone.but of course i not mention to my close one. Now is the time. But it doesn't seem like it. What is wrong? I don't know. Well i really do not wanna waste time. So i stick to my decisions. I stick to my choices. I just stick to them.

I will need a future. A bright future. I will need income. Good income. I will need education. What's education for? For work, of course. And behind all these complex worldly issues, it's faith. Because you need to have good answers for such questions: What am i on Earth for? Where will i go after i die?

I will think of more important questions

For now as the wind blows and the leaves rustle, and 1 door closes and another opens. . . i shall end with and excerpt from Tom Hanks in Cast Away:

"I gotta keep living. Keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise again. Who knows what the tide brings. . .

Track N Field

2009-05-20T20:47:00.002+08:00

"TRACK N FIELD"

Track and field is a sport that tests a wide range of physical abilities. From the 100m dash to the 3000m steeplechase and up to the gruelling marathon, different physical attributes such as speed, agility and endurance are tested. However, every event will test a particular or a few main physical abilities.

The 100m dash is purely a speed event. Reaction time is no more greater in importance than in any other events. It is also the most psychologically pressurizing event over a short period of time. Any mistake can cost greatly. There is no time to rectify any mistake during the dash. It measures explosive speed and power.As the events progress in distance, for example, the 200m and 400m runs, speed is no more the prime physical prerequisite. Another major component is introduced. It's endurance.200m and 400m runners will also show distinct different body structures from the 100m sprinters. They are leaner and less stocky.

This is to accomodate the need to go fast over a greater distance.And near the end of the distance spectrum lies the 1500m, 5000m and 10000m events. The 5000m and 10000m are distance events. The 5000m event tests more of speed than the 10000m. The 1500m will naturally require greater speed ability than the 5000m and 10000m.Finally the most unique of the running events is the 3000m steeplechase.

Runners need not only have good endurance but also the agility and strength to hurdle 28 9.14cm barriers. In addition, one of the four barriers placed on the track is put behind a pit of water for the runners to land on

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2009-05-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

BLOGGING

There are many reasons to why people blog. Some feel better after blogging. Some blog to air their views. Others may want to hone their writing.

I think writing reflects

The things talked about and the opinions expressed tells what kind of a personality one has.
But all these are guesswork. Because what's discovered or observed is still subject to certain possibilities.

Can he or she write differently from how he or she thinks? Maybe.

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21 April 2009

2009-04-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

29/3/09

2009-03-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

Morning i went out for jog from my place to Ten mile junction. and went back it again abt 3.5km. After dat went out wif my mum , my sister and my brother in law to geylang serai for some fresh air. and den i went for foot reflexology whoa... been 3 month since i went there. i feel much energize after e foot massage.

Nothing much ard home... same old shit again.. Den 7.45pm right after mahgrib, i went out for nite jog, instead going to ten mile junction , i ran six round ard Limbang Park. Well coz there lot of other ppl jogging too.

well dat all for e day. Good Night

28/03/09

2009-03-28T23:04:00.003+08:00

Today, there nothing much, slacking around ard home. Suppose today we plan to go East Coast Park for Jogging but den i had a bad feeling dat going to rain and long distance from here to get there.

Today i explore new road Park connector, All along from CCK park to Villa Verde den to Zhenghua Park is quite tiring but i'll get used to it. All i juz need to maintain my stamina and speed so dat i mentally prepare for watever race day comes

Well dat all for e day. Looking forward to try new thing Good nite !! :)

27/3/

2009-03-27T22:36:00.006+08:00

I always been told to take care of myself for many times.., recently i been sick for past few weeks and now i'm fully recover. YEah i miss my Jurong mates and i miss my MSCC member ard e same time.. Well i dunno maybe i too bonded wif them especially to my very close friend Qamarul, Arsyad, Syaiful, Hang SOng ( know as Band of Brothers) Sam and Gabriel.. and Also instructor Tiru, they all alknowledge me, inside in and out.

and to my 4 SIR comrade,
i juz got to noe dat my Twin brother David got his position well guess i cant write much abt camp becoz restrict to all NSF personnel. All i know... they all changed and getting stronger.

My reflection.. The only i can do are small insignificant , all i noe juz to run. I dont haf so much knowledge wat other ppl do, i cant save my best friend... i cant save my Family, my parents . I let my dad work so hard instead of myself.. Wat kind of son am i.

Everyone do haf problem, and me... i carrying all by myself by not sharing wif others... somehow i wish to release my emotional here, well is not wrong to be emo rite? well ..yap... I dun haf strength for all this. All wouldnt listen to me because i was too weak. They wouldnt acknowledge me because i was weaker than them, That why i haf to get stronger, no matter wat e cost.

Well for now all can do to gamble my Life, and i will put my life on e line. Well dat all for e day ... Good nite dude..

27/3/

2009-03-27T22:36:00.002+08:00

27/3/

2009-03-27T22:36:00.001+08:00

23 Feb

2009-02-23T23:52:00.003+08:00

Dear God,

Please bring some light into these dark times...

Even just a little..

Amin

8/2/2008

2009-02-08T18:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary.

Came from a graveyard shift. Thank God I survived my 24-hour duty despite feeling ill. So, so tired that when I got home I almost forgot to change to my house clothes, lol! After a few minutes, I was off to dreamland and I was able so soundly slept for more than three (3) hours. Now am just taking time watching Youtube videos and blogging!:) Thanks guys for still taking time to visit my blog site!:) Be visiting you back all when I can. Have a blessed Sunday!

JErry Nanaki AKA Anwar Yusoff

27 Jan 2009

2009-01-27T11:27:00.001+08:00

"On that day, you taught me that solitude is painful! I understand that so well right now. I have family, and I have friends but if you're gone... To me... It will be the same as being alone."

and To become Runner is my dream.

26/01/2008

2009-01-26T15:03:00.001+08:00

The next Generation will always surpass the previous one and take their place.

25/12/2008

2008-12-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

I will wwork very hard, because i want to be aknowledge by others. That is what i thought when i looked at Him. Bonds with others. Untill now, i had only knows them as hate and own selfishness, but i wonder , what is that bond that he longed for? Now i think i understand, even if only a little. Pain, Sadness and joy. These feelings allow you to understand others.

Jerry Nanaki

8 December 2008

2008-12-08T20:11:00.002+08:00

Teamwork are very important. I know i'm standing at a dangerous bridge, but i want to cross over that bridge by myself. If i cant make it to the other side, i NeVEr GrOW Up!!! So please dont take that Bridge away from me!!

25 November 2008

2008-11-25T23:46:00.001+08:00

PRECIOUS

If you had someone in your life who did more than that...who acknowledged your existence - even cared for you - wouldn't that person become the most important...treasured...person in your life

Jerry Nanaki

Falling In Love

2008-11-15T21:01:00.002+08:00

Signs of someone falling in love

Love is in the air, as we always say when someone is falling in love. People may differ in age, race, and religion and even on physique but you can easily distinguish signs of someone falling in love. These signs can be both physical and emotional signs. And when someone is obviously finding love in his heart, signs are becoming obvious.

Physically, most people blooms when they are falling in love particularly women. You can see their eyes twinkling with so much happiness. It is a kind of happiness that displays lots of emotions. They are also very conscious of their appearance like being very choosy as to the type of clothes to wear, perfume to use, make-up style to wear as well as hair style to have. Others particularly guys, are obvious to have great appetite for food but find it hard to sleep.

People who are falling in love also display jolly actions. They are very active and cooperative. But there are also some who are dreamy or most of the time is caught into day dreaming. They also loved to do conversations and tell stories repeatedly about the person they are in love with.

Emotionally, people who are falling in love are inspired all the time. They are always in romantic mood to appreciate music particularly love songs, to write or read poetry about love, and to sketch or draw images about the people they adore. They are also very sensitive and touchy of every message given to them. Even small messages can meant a lot for them.

People who are falling in love seem to be sentimental too. They value everything that is associated with the person they are in love with such as gifts, letters, tokens and even candy wrappers. They also become thoughtful because they seem to remember all special events like birthdays, anniversary, first date, first kiss, etc.

If even in a thousand crowd, someone can still recognize and determine the person special to his heart, then that is a sign of someone falling in love. If someone can freely accept the whole being of that special person, if someone can appreciates all he/she is doing and saying, if someone is after his/her safety and happiness and if someone wants to be always besides him/her, then that someone is absolutely falling in love!

Jerry Nanaki

PS: I CANT HELP FALLING IN LOVE WIF YOU _ _ _ _ _!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 November 2008

2008-11-05T22:57:00.023+08:00

Without You, it Equivalent to Lonely that is all FRIENDSHIP about.

When there was a team,

With Team Tampines. Platoon 4, Platoon 2 and my family with him,

He finally found friends with big smiles and be aknowledge,

He could carry within miles.

POP BMT DAY

2008-09-13T01:21:00.009+08:00

POP GRADUATION DAY

THe 9 weeks of BMT have changed me and allowed me to appreciate things more than before. When i first stepped into 4 SIR. I thought that i was going to waste 2 years of my life. However, when i look back at the 3 months BMT, i feel that this time has helped me understand myself better . I am more motivated and have more self-confidence. Having friends who have been through the tough times and commanders who have guided me, motivates me and i am more willing to give my best . Through these tough times. I have to come to appriciate my my family more. This journey will always stay with me and i will overcome the future challenges with a smile.

PTE Jerry Nanaki

11 July 2008

2008-07-11T03:40:00.002+08:00

A boy who live in the Men Heart :)

This is the story of a boy who lived inside of a man,

The boy and man were the same person, with one heart

but two minds between them.

When the boy wanted to run, the man would walk.

When the boy wanted to cry, the man would shout.

When the boy wanted to play, the man would work.

The boy and the man did not see eye to eye on much of anything,

except when it came to matters of the heart.

Both the man and the boy loved and shared alike.

One day the man decide to change himself

and the boy was scared.

He feared he would be forgotten or left behind

with all the other passing memories in time.

But the man reassured the boy that he could not be forgotten.

Because who he had been, and he would become,

were one and the same, and they would always remain alike.

This helped soothe the frightened boy

and on that fateful day, both the boy and the man

learned what strength was made of.

At first, many people did not respect the man's wish

to be humilated and looking down on his personality in the beginning the man was defiant.

But the boy inside reminded him of tolerance,

and this is how they both learned what patience could accomplish.

After some time had passed the man grew wiser.

But the boy remembered all the sad stories- stories of other

little boys who had faded into memories.

So, he made it a point to hold on.

He focused on remaining strong.

Then, one day, the man was called for National Service.

The boy might have gone, but the man knew better.

He knew that if he went, the innocent boy inside---- his better self--- would be lost forever

So both the boy and the man learned courage.

After the man took a stand, holding onto his religious beliefs,

he was stripped of all that the world thought made him special, and the boy became a survivor.

On that day the boy and the man embraced forgiveness.

For the man knew that if he did not let go of his pain, their heart would harden.

After much time had passed,

after struggling to carry on , the man was vindicated and his career returned to him.

Although for man forgave, the boy remembered the pain.

Yet, through this ordeal the man learned ,

what faith insured, and the boy learned to endure.

Although the future proved promising and the life of the man

was rewarding, he would face many obstacles

and would continue to be tested.

And though all of the joy, laughter, tears, and pain,

the boy inside the man lived to tell the story.

He survived to share the glory.

JErry Anwar Nanaki :)

2008-07-09T23:16:00.006+08:00

The Purpose of LIFE

Everything that God created has a purpose. The sun has a purpose. The clouds have a purpose. Rain has a purpose. Trees have a purpose. Animals have a purpose; even the smallest insects, and fish in the sea have a purpose.
Regardless of how large or small, we were all born to accomplish a certain task. It is the knowledge of that purpose that enables every soul to fulfill itself. One person with knowledge of his life's purpose is more powerful than ten thousand working without that knowledge.

It is important for each of us to figure out why we were put here on earth by God. The importance of life is to accomplish the task we were given. Without working on this task, life is meaningless.Human beings have a basic need and desire to accomplish something before they die- to make a difference. When working toward this goal, man has hope and Energy. Therefore, it is essential that each of us learn what we were meant to do as early as possible in order to have a satisfying and productive life.

( Just like Uzumaki Naruto , " I WILL NEVER DIE , UNTILL I BECOME HOKAGE, THAT MY WAY OF MY NINJA ") His task to be Hokage, To protect his love one, dat will make hims stronger.

Your purpose may be bigger than mine or another person's, but that doesnt make mine any less important. God would not place a burden on a man's shoulders knowing he could not carry it, nor would he give a person without significance.
Everyone has his or her own lessons to learn and obstacles to overcome. The expriences should not be weighed against each other because they are all equally important in the end. Each time i thought i had achieved my life's purpose, i discovered it was onky another step in my journey. I thought boxing and marathon would help me be that public "Typical Malay role Model" who was missing while i was growing up. I thought my purpose was to be that hero who showed children dat Typical Malay is beautiful. I thought my purpose was to be that champion who showed all different kind of races people they couldnt treat Malay or Indian like second class citizens. I learned that all of these accomplishments were important, but even more important. I gained a platform that allowed me to carry out my real mission, which has been to encourage all people to respect each other and to live in peace. I AM STILL DISCOVERING GOD'S PURPOSE FOR ME.

Sign off

Jerry Nanaki

National Service Countdown : 24 Hour left from now..

6th July 2008

2008-07-06T23:40:00.005+08:00

Cant be bother..

Said Also Don't Listen

Listen Also don't Understand

Not Understand Also Don't Ask

Ask Also Don't Do

Do Also do Wrong

Wrong Also Don't Admit

Admit Also Don't Correct

Correct Also Not Happy

Not Happy Also Don't Say..

3 July 2008

2008-07-03T11:49:00.003+08:00

My Life

My Life

Some days seem like a struggle to get through

Some are breeze

I question my purpose and reason

But no answer has yet come

I know there;s a purpose for me bigger

Than life itself

But where do i begin to get these

Questions answered

I was put here to do great things and

To make a difference in other's life

Some days i feel helpless and lost

Unimportant and useless

Other days i feel like i make all the difference

Needed and wantes

There's never a balance, just a high and a low

But when i hear about others who are helpless and lost

Those who haven't even made it to smell a breath of fresh air

I feel selfish for even having such thoughts

Then i realize that my purpose is just that

To live, love, and enjoy life to the fullest

Sign off

2nd July 2008

2008-07-02T07:45:00.004+08:00

Ignorance of Truth

I look at you with so much disgust

For everything you stand for

For your Honor,

For your Loyalty,

Your bravery

I think of you and the bile rises.

How can you stand for so much good?

How can you expect so much good?

When there is so much death in the world.

People follow you with blind trust and devotion.

And I pity them.

They look at you as if you stand for everything good.

Their blind devotion makes me sick.

When I look at you I see what you truly are,

You are every dying creature,

You are every broken promise,

You are every broken heart,

You are everything that has gone wrong,

You are all things evil.

People give thanks to you when things go right.

They never see past the good,

But I do.

I see what you truly are.

I would be angry too, if someone killed my son.

But haven't you deemed enough revenge?

Haven't you killed enough things?

Haven't you hurt enough people?

You are NO saint,

You are NO god.

Yet we paint you as the ultimate creator.

It's true, you are a creator

A creator of death.

So why people stand in blind ignorance of you,

Thinking you are the blooming flower,

I will stand apart,

Alone in a world of ignorance.

Knowing that that flower is beautiful.

But it will die.

Everything does.

SIGN OFF

1 July 2008

2008-07-01T10:09:00.004+08:00

Where I am from

I am from a town that no one knows

I am from the weeds that grow deep in the ground where they grow.

I am from the gushing winds and the brownest dirt.I am from the Native Singaporean that are always on the go.

I am from the tumbleweeds that move in the wind as it blows.

I am from a town that has everything as well as nothing.

I am from the clearest water to the greenest grass.

I am from the sun that brightens our day.

I am from a place where kids go out to play.

I am from a family with love and care.

I am from a family with a dad so far.

I am from a world with troops into war.

I am from a family with a deed and legacy.

I am from a family with happiness and fantasies.

I am from the hardships and struggles that one might face.

I am from a world that will soon be yours to face.

I am from a world with peace and destructions.

I am from a place with many interruptions.

I am from a place so little into called singapura.

I am from a place that I can call my own.

I am from a place for now you know.

Why are you here?

Well, have you ever wonder why are you here on earth?? Well.. Serious.. Why?? I mean, think about it for a second. Why was there an earth out here, why was there even human being like us in the first place? What is our purpose on this earth?

Why? You mean, we are here just to live a meaningless life, trying to filll the void in our life by smoking, fornicating, going into relationship to relationship, abusing drugs.. Or to live a "NORMAL" life, study and study, go in poly, go into uni. After that find a "good" job, earn "big" bucks, drive "fast" cars. Then get a girlfriend/boyfriend and get married, have children, work harder somemore to provide for family. See the child grow up. Work even harder to support child to poly and uni. Grow older and subsequently just DIE peacefully' like that and the cycle repeat itself. Ha.

Even if you think that you are living a very fruitful life now, but seriously, are you? Think again.

Well, this post is not meant to provide you with solution, you have to find it from the Creator Himself. But one thing i know for sure is that we are not meant to live and die like this. There is more to it.

Sign off

24 June 2008

2008-06-24T02:48:00.002+08:00

A story of Real Friendship in my life

One day, when I was a Teenage in Zhenghua Secondary school, I saw a guy from my class was walking home from school. His name was Terry. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.' I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friend tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of boys running towards him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives.' He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!' There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private tuition before now. I would have never hung out with a private tuition guy before. We talked all the way home, and I carried his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool guy. I asked him if he wanted to play football on Saturday with me and my friends. He said yes. We hung all weekend and the more I got to know Terry, the more I can click with him. And my friends thought the same of him. Monday morning came, and there was Terry with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, 'Damn boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!' He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Terry and I became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think about college. Terry decided on Polytechnic, and I was going to College East ITE. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for Project Engineer on a Building Drafting scholarship. Terry was valedictorian of our class . I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak. Graduation day, I saw Terry. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during in school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than me and all the girls loved him! Boy, sometimes I was jealous. Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!' He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. 'Thanks,' he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began. 'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach… but mostly your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story.' I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. 'Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable.' I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realise it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse.

" Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly ".

Dat e reason why i name myself "Jerry" to remember, Honor of my Friendship

Anwar Nanaki

20 June 2008

2008-06-20T19:50:00.003+08:00

Emotions

What is this phenomena called emotion? We do not know why it exists and we cannot evade from it. Can you stop being angry when someone hits you? Okay if you don't feel angry, you will feel somewhat shocked, right? That is what i'm talking about. Shock is an emotion. when you are taken aback by something not expected of. This thing called emotion that exists in all human beings makes us humbled by our limitations. I am trying to say how vulnerable we humans are. We are vulnerable. Say you get a piece of sad news. Really very sad news. For example, someone very close passed away. How does that feel? Yes, that is what I'm talking about. It's not so much of a physical pain. It could be mental pain slightly. But it's emotional pain. And it just proves how weak and vulnerable we humans are. Can you avoid emotion? It's in us.

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18 June 2008

2008-06-18T10:18:00.002+08:00

"Track N Field"

As the events progress in distance, for example, the 200m and 400m runs, speed is no more the prime physical prerequisite. Another major component is introduced. It's endurance.

200m and 400m runners will also show distinct different body structures from the 100m sprinters. They are leaner and less stocky. This is to accomodate the need to go fast over a greater distance.

And near the end of the distance spectrum lies the 1500m, 5000m and 10000m events. The 5000m and 10000m are distance events. The 5000m event tests more of speed than the 10000m. The 1500m will naturally require greater speed ability than the 5000m and 10000m.

Finally the most unique of the running events is the 3000m steeplechase. Runners need not only have good endurance but also the agility and strength to hurdle 28 9.14cm barriers. In addition, one of the four barriers placed on the track is put behind a pit of water for the runners to land on.

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16 June 2008

2008-06-16T18:32:00.002+08:00

THE SUN

We use energy everyday. Electricity, petroleum and lunch. Life will be a standstill without any of these. This web of energy transfer and transmission is very very complex and systematic. Am I contradicting myself? Well complex because there are an infinite number of interconnections of the energy transfers. Systematic because the interconnections enable each need to meet it's fulfillment. Food is obtained from plants. Food is for lunch. Lunch gives energy for you to survive another day's work. And plants rely on water, air and sunlight to grow. That's the interconnection of energy transfer.

It makes me realize how important the Sun is. It's amazing what the rays of the Sun can do. It caused the weather. It caused rain. Water rushes through the dam gates. And so we have hydroelectric power to keep the lights on in homes at night.

It's pretty scary to imagine life without the Sun. The visual imagination is quite scary. Then Earth will be illuminated by lights. We'll need many many lights. Across the streets and anywhere possible. Then we'll realise the lighting power of the Sun. When the Sun lights up the Earth, it is almost everywhere. Across and throughout the sky. Lighting the Earth on our own will be nothing compared to what the Sun can do. So we'll need the power stations to give energy to light up. We need to burn fuel to generate the energy. And fuel can deplete, sooner or later.

That leaves us to plunge into total darkness, sooner or later, without the Sun. At first when there is no Sun, we could still light up from our power stations. But not for long.

The Sun is an enormous ball of fire great enough to lead some people to worshipping it. But a god in that property seems furious all the time, engulfing whatever existent. Is that God? Or is God the One who created the Sun?

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15 June 2008

2008-06-15T01:01:00.003+08:00

When the Wind blows, and all i can hear is the tree sway and leaves rustle..

I'm 21. All 21. All alone. Now is the time. But it doesn't seem like it. What is wrong? I don't know. Well i really do not wanna waste time. So i stick to my decisions. I stick to my choices. I just stick to them.

I will need a future. A bright future. I will need income. Good income. I will need education. What's education for? For work, of course. And behind all these complex worldly issues, it's faith. Because you need to have good answers for such questions: What am i on Earth for? Where will i go after i die?

I will think of more important questions.

For now as the wind blows and the leaves rustle, and 1 door closes and another opens. . . i shall end with and excerpt from Tom Hanks in Cast Away:

"I gotta keep living. Keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise again. Who knows what the tide brings. . .

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14 June 2008

2008-06-14T00:34:00.003+08:00

It's Objective

Have you seen other blogs? They talk about personal lives. One will tell what the writer did from the moment he woke up to the time he turns in. Is that great? Another will be about the all- too- common relationship problems, some crushes here and there and the insidious gossiping. Gossiping is clearly bad. We have seen what is common. And what stands out. You decide.

What is the point of blogging? To pass time? As a pastime? We have heard that writing can be a therapeutic process. That explains how writing a personal diary helps for many people. I believe that blogging is a good way to express your opinions.

I try to make (JERRY NANAKI MEDICAL NINJA ) different. I try to make it simple yet wide. I try to generate wide ideas. New ideas. New insights. I am not trying to break free from the norm for no particular reason. You have to know something about pop culture. It is not always right. Jerry Nanaki captures that. In new ways.

There is a beauty in putting complex ideas into simple words. There is a beauty in understanding between various cultures. Expressing in a concise and accurate way is a skill. How are you supposed to reach a global audience without adhering to the rules of a unified language?

Jerry Nanaki wears a new attitude. It's objective.

Sign Off Anwar Yusoff

13 June 2008

2008-06-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

Is that true, why do you still treasure that picture book so much?

The Two children on the cover are you and your brother, aren't they?

Why is that book so precious to you? Because it's the only thing that proves that you exist.

You haven't lost your emotions as much as you like to claim.

There is no Human Being can fully throw away their emotions.

The Fact that you accepted the book back and say "thank you" proves it.

You felt relieve when i handed it to you. The reason why you don't want to let go of that picture book.. .. is because you can't give your image you have of yourself as a little brother.. Do you know why??????????

Because your ties with your brother were important to you!!!!!!!!!

You don't want to destroy the bond you share with your brother

i just being concern about you... don't be so ego ..Just take your time to think about it la... Time for me to sleep now.. take good care and good nite.. :)

11 June 2008

2008-06-11T00:22:00.002+08:00

When I was boxing and Marathon runner, i would set a goal for myself to demonstrate to other people what could be done, and to prove to myself that anything was possible when i set a goal then worked to achieve it. We create our own realitities according to our thoughts and beliefs. The critic who told me what i couldnt do didnt know as well as i what i was capable of.

Everyone wins and everyone loses every now and again. If we didnt exprience a loss we would never know what we are capable of. The important thing to remember is:

You dont really lose when you fight or race for what you believe in. You lose when you fail to fight for what you care about.

I'm going to share a little secret with you. Running has always been a source of my stamina. Early in my Career i learned to run untill i was tired, then run even more after that. But all the Running i did before the fatique and pain was just the introduction to my workout. The real conditioning began when the pain set in. That was when it was time to start pushing. That was when i would count every mile as extra strength and stamina.
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What counts in the Rings or in the race is what you can do after you exhausted. The same is true of life.

Outrun the people who quit when they feel discomfort, outrun the people who stop because of despair, outrun the people who are delayed because of prejudice, outrun the people who surrender to failure, and outrun the opponent who loses sight of the goal. Because if you want to win, the WILL can never retire, the race can never stop, and faith can never weaken.

BUT THE WILL MUST BE STRONGER THAN THE SKILL

Champions aren't made in gyms. Champions are made from something deep inside- a desire, a dream , and a vision. They have to have te skill and the will.

Sign off Jerry Nanaki